Trying to catch my breath but there’s stones at the bottom of these lungs. I am heavy, stagnant, yet always on the run. Most days feel like an endless inferno, I am too mesmerized by the colors to realize that I am burning. My bones now brittle, crumbling like stale bread each time I try…
How Did I Become So Jaded, When I’ve never been in love?
This recumbent state Of living is not how I wish it to be But it’s the little things That torture and pick At me endlessly Like the way the sun Had glistened off Your eyelashes, Liquefying my walls, I quickly try to board myself back up Hoping you didn’t notice. Your eyes, I fear they…
New Beginnings Are Always Scarier Than Endings
Lilac moon, Apricot kiss, Always on the verge of something arising, But never beginning. This endless winter has cradled my limbs for years and years, So forgive me but I am fearful of the sun, But here you are again. Only used to empty words And lifeless glances, So what is this warmth I feel…
Nice Guy Syndrome
Be honest with yourself Just this once. You left me outside your door again, Made me lose my breath, Summer rain stayed in These hazy eyes for months. You toss my words to the floor, Just like my clothes on that winter night. Those starlit eyes never once looked into mine, That girl from before…
Blank Thoughts
Despondent daydreams And Vacant eyes. With a closed mouth, You say to get a clue. I can see it clearly, She’s the only girl you think of, You see her in everything like I do with you. Make believe there isn’t Light years between us, But those empty kisses Keep filling me up Im bursting…
Sorry That I Couldn’t Say Goodbye
It’s been months, your grenadine kiss Stained on my lips, They tasted of new beginnings. The freckles on your body A road map I followed, Lighthearted angel, I can’t take my Eyes off of you As you leave. What do I do When looking at someone else Feels so much like a sin, Your smile…
Sanctify
I thought I moved on from it all but I keep looking in my rear view mirror, wondering if you’ll ever appear. Deep down I know I’d turn around if you asked me too. My heart once light as feathers, solidifies with pain as the space between us grows bigger. The fire that rages behind…
Self-comfort
You look at me with such worry I almost believe you care, but its alright. I've been here many times, You don't have to reach for my hand in the darkness, I know how to create my own stars That lead me back to solid ground. Being my own savior Can be a bore, But…
Ripples in my head
I can feel the sanity Slipping through my Hands again. Trying to grasp it, Is like trying to catch Sunlight, It flows straight through These bony fingers, Hitting the ground. The waves Crash over me, The chains Of my Existence begin to Drag me down
Emotionally Unavailable (but only with me).
Others knew there was no one home. Still I knocked relentlessly hoping you’d answer, whether it be from boredom or curiosity. I was never inside of you but still I felt comfort in the shadow that casts from your halo. The magic spell has gone away, I no longer feel the warmth of your existence…
